HELPING THE HELPERS – PRESUMPTION OF ILLNESS FOR FIRST RESPONDERS IN BRITISH COLUMBIA

INTRODUCING – Presumption of Illness for First Responders in British Columbia .

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Introducing Presumption of Illness for First Responders Iin Br…

** WARNING – THIS VIDEO MAY CAUSE TRIGGER **This has been a very difficult post to try and write. How do you explain in words how it feels to go from the darkest depths of the devils belly – after living for many years slowly loosing your family, 3 attempted suicides , loosing your career, countless treatment centers, detox centers, doctors, shrinks, and more meds than your local pharmacy has in store as we speak.Years and years of trying to prove to Worksafe BC that your Post Traumatic Stress , and all the symptoms are work related. How does one express how it feels , to travel the world, and shake many peoples hands , and tell the story to every news, radio, newspaper, website, podcast, and all social media as to how important it is that we bring more public awareness not only to PTS – but also to this Bill M203 .Last year, with the help from all of our sponsors and 100's of volunteers the day finally came true, when we had the honour to be invited to sit and be witness to a change in history when Shane Simpson – tabled Presumption of Illness during our #ITSNOTWEAKTOSPEAK tourThanks to @Shane Simpson – BC NDP and to the over 6000 people across Canada who have helped sign our petition , Finally , the moment we have all been waiting for.Under the Workers Compensation Amendment Act, when a First responder is diagnosed with a Post Traumatic Stress Injury, it will be deemed as a result of their occupation.This will end the hurdles around WorkSafeBC claims and the related unacceptable delays that too many of our Public Servants who need support are facing today.Lets not get to excited yet, because this same Bill was tabled last year, and the Liberal Government wanted nothing to do with it – therefore, since then, this last year in BC alone, 19 more of our Public Safety workers have ended their lives, leaving there familes behind, with again ZERO HELP from Worksafe BC . Its time to make serious changes in todays Goverment.100 years ago ( 1917 ) 306 Soldiers 23 of them Canadians, were lined up and executed by fireing squad for being considered "Cowards" because they were showing signs of what we call today – PTSDThese men, ( some only 17 – 19 yr old boys ) had their blindfolds removed before being executed to show how Brave they really are.100 years ago – ( 1917 )Worksafe BC was founded.Worksafe BC Mandate is as follows – Our organization was established by provincial legislation as an agency with the mandate to oversee a no-fault insurance system for the workplace.* We partner with employers and workers in B.C. to do the following:* Promote the prevention of workplace injury, illness, and disease* Rehabilitate those who are injured, and provide timely return to work* Provide fair compensation to replace workers' loss of wages while recovering from injuries* Ensure sound financial management for a viable workers' compensation systemSURE LOOKS GOOD – SOUNDS GOOD – The only thing that has changed with Worsafe BC, in the last 100 years is that we have gone from shooting people with PTSD – to just leaving us out to rot and die by suicide all alone still without any help what so ever.Ummm, did I miss something in the mandate I just read ?In order for a First Responder to feel safe in asking for help, He or She needs to be sure it's actually there for them.** note ** I have written over 110 000 words regarding my personal feelings on this Bill and how important it is that it passes through legisaltion , I have beat my head against walls these last few weeks trying to minimize my words and facts about WCB – and my conclusion to it all , is this .Its far to much, far to deep , far to dark to write about in a facebook post so for my own sanity, I must keep this post as simple as it is – * forgive me for not being able to find it in words to descibe how it feels to have a rifle down your throat, forgive me for not being able to express in words just how it feels to be absolutly shit on by these worksafe animals , or how to minumize my words as to how it feels to loose your soul mate, your family , your career, the nightmares, the over whelming amount of stress, depression , anxiety ( as do 1000's of other First Responders and people ) have tried to survive with for so many years before ending up scrurring around the dark alleyways beyond paranoid – beyond scared, beyond the point of no return – hopeless – hungary and totally given up on ever wanting to breath another breath of air, or see another dark night.Words will never describe what its actually like to be on your hands and knees begging for your life , looking up at the very people you used to risk your life for and wonder, why cant you hear us , why cant you see us , you used to thank us for our service, you used to smile at us when we came to your rescue and here we are now needing someone , anyone , please help us , please hug us.* I really can;t even begin to tell you how this feels to even sit here now with this feeling that , this Bill being tabled – is by far the best thing that can happen to all of our Emergency Services, and is a start to bringing more help to anyone suffering with Mental health Challanges . Thank you to all of you who helped sign our petition, and flip our tire over many mountians and especially for helping share our posts with your friends and family in order to get to this stage of the game , where , when this Bill passes – ( as long as NDP get the mahority of votes ) then history will really be made .This is a tough post for me to write about , cause , it really brings up alot of happiness, but , for some reason I have been feeling over whelmingly sad and depressed knowing that , even thought this is tabled and accepted for a second reading, its the people who are out there right now DYING to get some help, and in reality ..it might not come if our current Government doesnt make some changes now .I will never forget what the feels like, to be sitting and hopeing tommorrow will bring some sort of hope, some sort of answer, some sort of solution, support , something .That feeling when your step kid isnt eating , or you can barely pay your bills, or are even so far in debt , it just feels like you are 20 feet under water reaching for the surface and wth each passing wave, you sink deeper and deeper, with each breath , your soul and spirit becomes more and more disconnected .I had better stop writing now , and give you more time to watch history in the making – Great work Shane Simpson – Much Respect Brother – ( today May 9th is last day to vote for John Horgan ) Katrina Chen, BC NDP Candidate for Burnaby-LougheedBC NDP Women's Rights CommitteeElect Bobby Deepak, BC NDPDana Larsen for BC NDP leaderBC NDP Surrey-White Rock Provincial ConstituencyBurnaby North BC NDPSue Powell, Parksville Qualicum NDPHarwinder Sandhu BC NDP Kelowna Mission 2017Kal TireMountain FMWhistler BlackcombSummit Lodge Boutique HotelCreekside Dental WhistlerVancouver Police DepartmentMounted Police Professional Association of CanadaDistrict of North Vancouver Fire and RescueVancouver Fire & Rescue ServicesSurrey Fire Fighters Association IAFF Local 1271Paramedics on FacebookParamedicsPTSD In Paramedics, EMTs, First RespondersYour Province, Your ParamedicsNational Suicide Prevention Lifeline '1-800-273-TALK (8255)'Nesters Market & Pharmacy – WhistlerPasta LupinoScandinave Spa Whistler

Posted by Its Not Weak to Speak on Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Its Not Weak to Speak –  @notweaktospeak

This has been a very difficult post to try and write. How do you explain in words how it feels to go from the darkest depths of the devil’s belly – after living for many years slowly losing your family, 3 attempted suicides, loosing your career, countless treatment centres, detox centres, doctors, shrinks, and more meds than your local pharmacy has in store as we speak.

Years and years of trying to prove to Worksafe BC that your Post Traumatic Stress, and all the symptoms are work related.

How does one express how it feels to travel the world, and shake many people’s hands, and tell the story to every news, radio, newspaper, website, podcast, and all social media as to how important it is that we bring more public awareness not only to PTS – but also to this Bill M203.

Last year, with the help from all of our sponsors and 100’s of volunteers the day finally came true, when we had the honour to be invited to sit and be witness to a change in history when Shane Simpson – tabled Presumption of Illness during our #ITSNOTWEAKTOSPEAK tour

Thanks to @Shane Simpson – BC NDP and to the over 6000 people across Canada who have helped sign our petition. Finally, the moment we have all been waiting for.

Under the Workers Compensation Amendment Act, when a First responder is diagnosed with a Post Traumatic Stress Injury, it will be deemed as a result of their occupation.

This will end the hurdles around WorkSafeBC claims and the related unacceptable delays that too many of our Public Servants who need support are facing today.

Lets not get to excited yet, because this same Bill was tabled last year, and the Liberal Government wanted nothing to do with it – therefore, since then, this last year in BC alone, 19 more of our Public Safety workers have ended their lives, leaving there familes behind, with again ZERO HELP from Worksafe BC .

Its time to make serious changes in todays Goverment.

100 years ago (1917)

306 Soldiers 23 of them Canadians, were lined up and executed by firing squad for being considered “Cowards” because they were showing signs of what we call today – PTSD

These men, (some only 17 – 19 yr old boys) had their blindfolds removed before being executed to show how Brave they really are.

100 years ago – (1917) – Worksafe BC was founded.

Worksafe BC Mandate is as follows –

Our organization was established by provincial legislation as an agency with the mandate to oversee a no-fault insurance system for the workplace.

* We partner with employers and workers in B.C. to do the following:

  • Promote the prevention of workplace injury, illness, and disease
  • Rehabilitate those who are injured, and provide timely return to work
  • Provide fair compensation to replace workers’ loss of wages while recovering from injuries
  • Ensure sound financial management for a viable workers’ compensation system

SURE LOOKS GOOD – SOUNDS GOOD –

The only thing that has changed with Worsafe BC, in the last 100 years is that we have gone from shooting people with PTSD – to just leaving us out to rot and die by suicide all alone still without any help what so ever.

Ummm, did I miss something in the mandate I just read?

In order for a First Responder to feel safe in asking for help, He or She needs to be sure it’s actually there for them.

** note ** I have written over 110 000 words regarding my personal feelings on this Bill and how important it is that it passes through legalisation, I have beat my head against walls these last few weeks trying to minimize my words and facts about WCB – and my conclusion to it all, is this .

It’s far too much, far too deep, far too dark to write about in a facebook post so for my own sanity, I must keep this post as simple as it is –

* forgive me for not being able to find it in words to describe how it feels to have a rifle down your throat, forgive me for not being able to express in words just how it feels to be absolutely shit on by these worksafe animals , or how to minimize my words as to how it feels to lose your soul mate, your family, your career, the nightmares, the overwhelming amount of stress, depression, anxiety (as do 1000’s of other First Responders and people) have tried to survive with for so many years before ending up scurrying around the dark alleyways beyond paranoid – beyond scared, beyond the point of no return – hopeless – hungry and totally given up on ever wanting to breath another breath of air, or see another dark night.

Words will never describe what its actually like to be on your hands and knees begging for your life, looking up at the very people you used to risk your life for and wonder, why cant you hear us, why cant you see us, you used to thank us for our service, you used to smile at us when we came to your rescue and here we are now needing someone, anyone, please help us, please hug us.

* I really can’t even begin to tell you how this feels to even sit here now with this feeling that, this Bill being tabled – is by far the best thing that can happen to all of our Emergency Services, and is a start to bringing more help to anyone suffering with Mental health Challenges.

Thank you to all of you who helped sign our petition, and flip our tire over many mountains and especially for helping share our posts with your friends and family in order to get to this stage of the game, where, when this Bill passes – (as long as NDP get the majority of votes) then history will really be made.

This is a tough post for me to write about, because, it really brings up alot of happiness, but, for some reason I have been feeling over overwhelmingly sad and depressed knowing that, even thought this is tabled and accepted for a second reading, its the people who are out there right now DYING to get some help, and in reality ..it might not come if our current Government doesn’t make some changes now .

I will never forget what the feels like, to be sitting and hoping tomorrow will bring some sort of hope, some sort of answer, some sort of solution, support, something.

That feeling when your step kid isn’t eating, or you can barely pay your bills, or are even so far in debt, it just feels like you are 20 feet under water reaching for the surface and with each passing wave, you sink deeper and deeper, with each breath, your soul and spirit becomes more and more disconnected.

I had better stop writing now and give you more time to watch history in the making –

Great work Shane Simpson – Much Respect Brother –

(today May 9th is last day to vote for John Horgan)

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Please welcome Terrance Joseph Kosikar to the BC Legislature

Member of the Legisltive Assembly – Shane Simpson welcomes Terrance Joseph Kosikar to the BC Legislature.

POWER OF THOUGHT – “Please welcome, Terrance to the Legislature”

One hour after the Vancouver 2010 Winter Olympics was over, most of Canada was cheering, and celebrating.

Unable to bare the overwhelming amount of guilt, shame, and the unforgiving feelings of depression and anxiety that had built up every time I heard a cow bell dinging, or saw a yet another happy face walk by as they cheered, I had left the track that night and chose to die by suicide..

4 days later, I sat in my doctors office, wondering why in the hell I had spent so many years risking my life to respond to the public’s Emergencies, and out of nowhere, here I was trying to die by suicide?

My doctor says to me, “ I think you may have PTSD”. This was the first time I had ever heard of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

He then referred me to a physciatrist for a professional diagnosis.

Problem was, the shrink only came to Whistler once every 3 months. So in the meantime, I was handed a few perscriptions to try and prevent me from trying to end my life again.

By the time shrinky poo came to town, 3 months later, do you think I wanted to say anything to this woman?

I didn’t know her, I didn’t trust her, I didnt believe in her, I was so heavily medicated, believe me, she was the last person on earth I was about to tell my homicidal thoughts or my suicidal feelings to.

The last thing I wanted was to be sentenced or diagnosed with a “DISORDER”.

It’s bad enough that my father spent his entire life housed in an institute for the criminally insane, Its certainly not where I wanted to end up also.

I tried to be the tough guy, and mask my feelings, hide my true thoughts, and avoid putting all my nightmares on the table in fear of her having me committed to a nut house for the rest of my life.

BIG MISTAKE

1 year later, I found myself checking into the Vancouver Detox Center, after being fired from my job at Whistler Sport Legaices for “not acting the same since the Olympics”, and for abusing the drugs (meds) that the doctors had me jacked up on that entire year to, “numb the pain, the feelings, the thoughts”.

I hadn’t eaten anything over those Christmas holidays, and had been violently puking blood uncontrollably before checking into detox that New Years day.

I was advised by the bosses at Sport Legacies (as they were firing me) to make a claim with WCB, for a workplace injury.

They had told me that PTSD is a workplace injury and that they would take good care of me the same as they took care of a few other employees that had been working during the games who also filed for PTSD .

At this point, I still had no idea what PTSD was, nor did I feel it was an injury. I assumed like most people do, that an injury is obvious. I mean I had been a First Responder for over 7 years, and never have I ever heard of this sort of injury, or it’s signs, or symptoms, nor how to respond to it, or treat it.

After years of jumping through the BS hogwash hoops like a circus monkey, with the loss of my careers, my livelyhood, the loss of my friends and family, on top of being dragged through a system that looks great proceedurly on paper but in real life is the most crooked, smoke and mirror show I have ever seen. Along wth many attempts at ending my life, self drugged and heavily medicated until I lost everything and ended up not even knowing who I was or why I was …

27 Chapters later …

Just last year, during our Breaking the Chains BC – PTSD Awareness program, I had opened up my Worksafe BC Occupational First Aid Level 3 book, and flipped through over 500 pages and couldn’t find ONE SINGLE SECTION, page or even the word PTSD in it.

Just so happened only a few days later, I was doing a radio interview on 101.5 Whistler FM, when the lady interviewing me mentioned how only days earlier a man named Shane Simpson MLA – Vancouver Hastings had just tabled Bill M203, Presumption of Illness, an amendment to the 2016 Workers Compensation Act .

(those were actually pretty big words for a guy like me, and really had no idea what any of it really meant.)

I had the next 27km of flipping my tire over 7 mountains to think about this man, and how amazing it would be to one day meet him.

I wanted more than anything in the world to just have 5 minutes of his time, to let him know first hand just how vital it is to all Emergency Service Providers that this Bill he had introduced gets passed.

With each flip of my tire, I would always lower my head though, knowing I am really just a nobody, just a ol washed up First Responder who lost his job, lost his family, I had no money, no pull, no status, still eating food bank donations, and I didn’t even own a cell phone.

Pffft, as if a guy like him, a politician, a Member of the Legislative Assembly would ever in a million years EVER, even have 1 second to look down at me, let alone – know I even existed on this earth.

I used to day dream over and over that one day, maybe just one day, I would be somebody, somebody special enough to get to cross paths with this man and or his team.

With these days dreams in mind, these postive goals and dreams put out to the universe each day, with each meditation. I had received an email from a man named Jim McCallistar, Director or British Columbia Search and Rescue who wanted to meet us to help flip our tire while in Victoria.

While talking with Jim outside the Legislature Building, Shane Simpson came outside to invite myself and our teammates into the house gallery the next day to have the honour to watch and listen in person while Shane introduced Bill M 203 into Legislation.

After going through some pretty serious security, we sat in the gallery, looking down at the entire BC NDP – over 40 members.

I can tell you now, this was by far the absolute coolest, most badass experience I had ever lived through. After all the years of many struggles, here I was, INSIDE a room where history is made. Where government makes decisions that structures how us, the people live or die for.

This all seemed like a crazy dream, one I have certainly never had before, never in my wildest day dreams, but this was about to get alot more real than I had ever imagined.

The Honourable Speaker, Ms Linda Reid, says the words “ Vancouver Hastings”

I then saw Shane stand up and my gut got all fuzzy inside, I was about to witness him introduce Bill M203, The Presumption of Illness, a Bill that our team had slaved 20 hrs a day, 7 days a week for over a year to bring more public awareness to with our tire flipping programs and online petition.

My teeth were clinched tight, my paws were even shaking a little bit as the fur on my arms started to stand up with excitment.

YES, this is really happening.

The next thing ya know, Shane says “ Thank you Honourable Speaker, Honourable Speaker, I’d like to introduce Terrance Kosikar who’s here with his colleagues.

My jaw about hit the floor, Shane went on to talk about who I was, and the work we do this last year to raise awareness to post Traumatic Stress.

When he was done talking he didn’t even introduce the Bill yet, but asked the entire house to Welcome me, a small fish backcountry farmer, TO THE LEGISLATURE .

All 40 members of the BC NDP, and all members of the Liberal Government smiled as they looked up into the gallery at us, and clapped.

This is by far the greatest, most special moment of my entire life – I stood up, in total shock, bowed humbly, sat back down and enjoy every single tear that rolled down my face onto my lap.

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Former paramedic flips tractor tire up Blackcomb Mountain for PTSD awareness

A former paramedic is flipping a 400-pound tractor tire through waist-deep snow up a mountain while shackled in 60 pounds of steel chains for a cause that’s very close to his heart.

Forty-five-year-old Terrance Kosikar and a team of his two friends from Australia and Romania have been on their arduous journey to 7th Heaven Summit on Blackcomb Mountain for the last five days and have at least another 1,000 feet left to go.

Kosikar was one of the first responders who tried to revive Georgian luger Nodar Kumaritashvili, who died in a horrific accident the day before the Opening Ceremony of the 2010 Vancouver Olympics.

Since then, Kosikar has suffered from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), ending up with suicidal thoughts and an addiction problem. In the five years after the accident, he lost his job, family and home.

Kosikar has now turned his life around and is hoping to help other first responders suffering from PTSD.

Kosikar is behind the “It’s not weak to speak – Not all wounds are visible” campaign to destigmatize PTSD and bring awareness to Bill M203, which aims to provide support for British Columbia’s first responders affected by PTSD sooner.

“We need the help immediately,” said Kosikar. “We should not have to prove our PTSD happened at work. We are first repsonders and we take the trauma home with us daily. It affects not only us, but our families and our friends. It is unacceptable and our provincial government needs to make changes.”

After Kosikar and his team reach the summit, they will have to flip the same tire for another 1,150 kilometres around B.C. to raise awareness about the campaign.

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Original article can be found here

PTS Awareness – Day 1 – I RELAPSED

** I RELAPSED **

By trying to get as “HIGH” as possible … up Cloud 9, on Whistler Blackcomb ,with our tractor tire to raise awareness to Post Traumatic Stress, Mental Health, Addiction and Recovery.

Day 1 – Flipped 1.7 kms – 728 Vertical meters

Our goal also was to bring more public awareness to Bill M203, “Presumption of Illness”, and ask the public we met along our journey to help us flip our tire, and sign our petition that would hopefully persuade our Provincial Government to pass this bill into Legislation.

Bill M203 -2016 Workers Compensation Amendment Act –

This Act amends the Workers Compensation Act in order to provide support and care for British Columbia’s first responders. The Act creates a presumptive clause for first responders suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder. In recognition of the crucial role paramedics, firefighters, police officers, and others play in ensuring the health and safety of British Columbian’s, this Act guarantees that they will receive timely support and treatment when they are suffering from exposure to traumatic events.

Raising awareness to any cause is a extremely difficult task.

Especially when it involves Emergency Service Providers and their families on an international level, adding to it, the fact that in Canada alone over the past 2 years, 179 First Responders have died by suicide.

YOU are driving down the road, holding your wife’s hand, as the sound of your children’s giggles in the backseat warm your thoughts, when out of nowhere, S M A S H – you get hit by a truck who just ran a red light.

I don’t need to paint this picture, you see what I see, the smell of gasoline lingers in the air, your hardly conscious, you look to the backseat, there isn’t one, the sound of flames crackle in the background as you can barely reach for your cell phone to call 911.

“Dispatch 911, what is your emergency?”

You explain the tragically gruesome scene to the dispatch agent.

Response from the Agent –

“Sorry but we can’t respond to your emergency right now, but if you go visit our website, and take the next 3 months time to simply jump through all our bullshit hoops, then please get signed off by 3 different doctors, and check yourself into a treatment center, but before you do that, you will also need to submit your last 15 years of medical records, then if you do have any money left, we will need you to just answer 750 of our scientifically proven to make sense to somebody questionnaire”.

If you haven’t taken your own life by that point from watching your family suffer more and more each day, we will be sure to give you a few more meds to numb the pain and your suicidal thoughts, umm wait sir, before you hang up – we will need to confirm your mailing address so we can be sure to mail your very first denial with 37 more pages of hoops to jump through before you begin the appeal process.

Thank you for calling Worksafe BC, we sincerly hope all works out for you, and if you do live long enough to make your way through all the smoke and mirrors, not to worry, we do have 3 more departments on stand by that make bigger salaries than you would in 20 years of your life to be sure you DO NOT PASS GO.

Our current system, through WorkSafe BC, is NOT DESIGNED TO HELP in any way shape or form.

Dial tone…

THIS IS THE EXACT PROCESS THAT 1000’s of our Canadian Emergency Service Providers currently are dealing with on a daily basis when they finally do reach out for help after they have suffered in silence long enough after many years of responding to our emergencies.

Your sit and question yourself as you thought you called 911 to get help, but all seems like a total blurr now, cause all of what you just heard is absolute “HOGWASH BULLSHIT”, and is so absolutely unbelievable, you begin to feel you’re in some sort of time warp on another planet.

I did not look up these facts on the internet, I have personally lived through this procedure, and answer my phone 24 hours a day from many Police Officers, Paramedics, Corrections Officers, Firefighters, Nurses, and Dispatch 911 Operators across Canada, who some are now on their 3rd – 9th year suffering minute by minute as they try and prove they deserve the help the minute they ask for it, just as we get the help the minute we call 911.

IT’S TIME TO MAKE THE CHANGES – NOW – WITH ABSOLUTELY NO EXCUSES – P E R I O D.

It breaks my heart at least 3 times a day over this last year and a half with the amount of tears shed, the amount of families I’ve listened to that are no longer. The amount of sadness in the voices I hear. All they did was their job, and now to be treated like criminals in a court of law, trying to prove their PTSD is work related.

People ask me, “Hey Terrance, why in the hell are you flipping that tractor tire up the side of a glacier, waist deep in snow, in -10 degree weather?

The answer is as simple as this, we can raise awareness to PTSD all we want, but how about some cold hard facts about our system which has yet to educate us properly on the signs and symptoms of PTS or give immediate treatment for those who suffer with them?

After many years of peeking our the blinds, the loss of my family, friends and careers, the amount of years I’ve spent contemplating suicide, the amount of ridiculous hoops I’ve jumped through, how many times I’ve had a rifle down my throat or side of my head, the amount of tears shed, and doors closed is my face, or knives in my back.

I will climb to the top of every mountain around the world for the rest of my life until one day we can help make changes so NO OTHER Emergency Service Provider or their family will ever have to endure that sort of pain and suffering for another minute.

ITS NOT WEAK TO SPEAK … so I just did.

My deepest, most sincere apologizes that this post is not full of unicorns, rainbows, and pink balloons, but there is just no way I can sit here and candy coat a very serious topic like Post Traumatic Stress, and the facts that our current Provincial Government / Workers Compensation Act is not helping our Emergency Service Providers that suffer from a Post Traumatic Stress Injury the minute they ask for it.

Unacceptable.

Please, take a minute to sign our petition, and share it with a friend, co worker, instagram it, tweet it, whatever it takes – NO MOUNTAIN TOO HIGH.

HELP SIGN PETITION

I’ll FKING KILL YOU – (sign of Post Traumatic Stress)

20 minutes after Nodar Kumaritashvili was pronounced at the Poly Clinic, some fancy suited guy from the Vancouver Olympic Committee comes walking into the room, looks at us, and all he says was, “WE DO NOT TALK ABOUT THIS TO NOBODY”.

“Not our friends, not our family, not our co- workers, not the media – NOBODY”.

I sat slumped in my chair, gazing down at the dried blood that had soaked into my boots, the sound of the heart monitor still echoing through mind, my heart, my every breath seemed to just beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

You ask yourself, where are my tears?

Why am I not feeling the loss of this young kids life, who I had just spent, what seemed like hours, crushing his ribs as I pushed on his heart harder and harder with each 1 and 2 and 3 and 4.

No words needed, as he stares at me as if to send that last telepathic message to his family, his girlfriend, his brother, the bone chilling screams of his coaches and trainers as they arrived on scene that day, will certainly haunt me till the day we meet again.

You grit your teeth, but not too hard, cause this isn’t really happening, this is just one of those dreams you will wake up from any minute, no tears, no talking, emotionless, as your look down ashamed of yourself, fighting the mind from trying to convince you that this was your fault.

Hours later, I stood alongside 3 other medics. As we boarded the gondola, some drunk Australian kid came stumbling into my peripheral vision and without thought, I turned around and knocked him out cold with 2 quick punches to the head.

3 of his buddies came running to his rescue. I reacted immediately in defense mode as if they were coming to attack me, I grabbed the one kid by the back of the head and just started feeding him shots to the body with a few upper cuts over and over again.

Totally possessed by some sort of higher power, There was absolutely no thought or care to anything I was doing as I tried dragging this kid into our gondola, as I yelled at him “I’ll FKING KILL YOU” little MFKer (punch punch punch).

I had lost my mind, and had absolutely no reason whatsoever to smash these 2 totally innocent people like that.

The doors closed and everything went very quiet, total silence as we rolled over the first tower towards the village.

I’ll never forget the feeling of total confusion as I stood staring down onto the lights in the village. The medics were all saying something to me , but it seemed like they were speaking different languages, and again, that dream feeling , where you sit there and know you are dreaming , and this is that moment where you wake up in cold sweat , gasping for a breath, panicked as you try to explain to your lover this crazy nightmare.

(not a dream this actually happened) – chapter 4 – Let the Games begin

I DIDN’T SLEEP OR DREAM AGAIN … FOR THE NEXT 5 YEARS.

I get asked all the time, “ Hey Terrance, why in the hell do you flip that big ol stupid tractor tire mile after mile, across, up and over mountains , through lakes and rivers?

The answer is simple,

To raise awareness to Post Traumatic Stress, and all the signs and symptoms that go with, so we can begin to understand and prevent anymore of our Canadian First Responders from dying by suicide, and leaving their careers, friends and families behind wondering …why?

ITS TIME TO MAKE SOME CHANGES – weather our current BC Provincial Government likes it or not.

This is totally unacceptable, especially when these are the men and women who risk their lives to save ours on a daily basis.

They respond to our emergencies, it’s time we respond to theirs.

Our Mental Health Facilities, Programs, and Insurance companies are broken and failing us beyond belief. Sure they all look good on paper, but how many people do you know who have been through the smoke and mirror, BS, hogwash system and come out on the other end and actually went back to work as healthy as they started?

You will not find this person, they do NOT exist, and as we speak now, over the last 2 years there are 179 Police, Fireman, Paramedics, Corrections Officers, Dispatch 911 operators, nurses, and soldiers 6 feet deep now.

These are the stats on the ones who have come forward over these last 2 years, that had been battling for years to get the help they deserve after being diagnosed with PTSD.

The numbers on the suicide rates within our First Responders who have not been diagnosed im sure are 10 times as staggering. Believe me, I’ve been there, and currently speak to many across our entire country who are all very close to just throwing in the towel.

Would you blame them for feeling this way. after years of trusting your current government, and assuming you risk your life for people who would take care of you and educate you and make sure your safe, and your family is taken care of if anything was to ever go sideways, life.

Please take a minute to go to our website and help by signing our petition, that I will personally hand deliver to NDP, MLA Shane Simpson next week who in turn will present this Bill M 203 – into Legislature.

www.itsnotweaktospeak.com

This photo was taken on Feb 13th 2017 … 7 years and one day after Nodar was killed.

Clearly, this is just the way it was written, many moons ago.

Thank you for your time, support, and helping share our awareness program with your friends and family .

WE RIDE FOR PTSD

Family Day – WE RIDE FOR PTSD – Slednecks  Kalle KJ Johansson

During the planning of this years PTS – Mental Health – Addiction – Recovery Awareness Tour – I sat and thought to myself, if it were up to me, as to how I wanted to kickoff our month long tour, where could I see myself on opening day ?

The answer was easy .. with close friends and family, off in the backcountry mountains of British Columbia, riding snowmobiles with a few of the top sled riders in the world – Colin RichardsonBarrett Hepburn,  Kalle Johansson, and Jeff Drummond.

I picked up the phone, and made a few quik calls from our office in Germany to my brothers – not only were they super stoked to help kick off our ” ITS NOT WEAK TO SPEAK tour, but KJ brought his girlfriend and daughter Nika –

WE RIDE FOR PTSD – the worlds first Mental Health Awareness Snowmobile Ride – be sure , this is now going to be an annual event

Mother Nature Heals All .

WARRANTS FOR MY ARREST? Tribal police flips tire to help raise awareness to PTSD

After hours of intense interrogation, by Constable Leonard Isaac, of the Tribal Police Stl’Atl’Imx, Mr.Terrance Joseph Kosikar refused to testify and is protected under s. 13 of the Charter from having any incriminating statements “used to incriminate himself in any proceedings against him at this time.

Kosikar says, “It’s not very often you see many people where I live out here in the backcountry, so today was very odd to me when I heard the rumble of a truck creeping its way up the long road to my cabin. I got the binoculars out, and to my surprise, it was a Tribal Police Truck.”

Kosikar admits he immediately ran inside the cabin and put all the guns away..grabbed his camera and started filming this unique situation. Ya see, even when people get shot up here or stabbed, its still very rare for the police to show up. (more…)